1000 to go

on this essay, btu its the nice thousand that will take me less than an hour....

just had a cold shower, another 2 cups of coffee and pourded one scalding one down myself. it seems i *am* working tomorrow... just somewhere else.,.... am definately gonna try find somewhere else whne i get back from spain though... it might sound a bit silly... but even if im found to have not done anything wrong there'll still be doubt in peoples minds, and while id normally be much more likely to 'live it down' to quote Clover Carr in 'What Katy Did' i dont want to actively put myself in a position where that is going on.tomorrow i know ill be scrutinised really hard by steve.. and i'll be second guessing myself constantly... which i dont want to be doing... i dont want to lose what confidence i *do* have in this area to make it like so many other things.... tomorrow night will be very interesting. the door will be locked when i get in... still working out getting to the coach station.. if i get some wheels for my baggage i could walk it...
anyhow... bak to the stomp stuff and then finish the essay off and then make the flasks up and head off to stomp.
i really hope that it goes well this evening. it feels so underprepared even though it was planned a while ago.and i want it to go well.